Crazy long time ago since I last wrote...

Well, its been about a month since I have last written and well, not too much to update on.

I did however reconnect with Sophia and Sebastian (flower girl and ring bearer) and their mom about a week or so ago! It had been over a year since I last saw them or was able to contact them, so I was just so happy to finally have reconnected.

So, and at this point in time I really don't care if my boss actually sees/reads this.... I hate my job. I used to really love it, working with kids. But the closer I come to the idea of pregnancy the more disconnected I become with my job. Don't get me wrong, I love many of the children, and they hold a place in my heart, but when it all boils down I realized this ISN'T what I want to be doing with my life. I also realized that at any given time (planned or not) a pregnancy is completely possible and I don't want to be working with kids just to go home to my own one day. Everyone says its different when they are youre own, but I'd rather not be short with them because I had a bad day at work or because another child did something that set me off and then I take it out on my kids. Not saying that another job wouldn' have that effect, but if I really loved it and knew it was the right job, would I still feel that way?

Brandon has been working two jobs and really enjoys the new one. Plus side: This new job means he will be making more than our two wages combined. Down side: He is debating on keeping both jobs or just quitting Starbucks, which means a drop of insurance and the occasional free drink :o) But it may mean that I can actually quit my job and we'd be ok until I can find another one! :o) We are still praying, but trying to hear God's voice when YOUR mind is already made up, is rather difficult... as will actually listening to it if we don't agree...!

Anyway, as many of you know, Brandon's friend passed away about a month ago. Though it was difficult for him to deal with, and he is dealing really well at this point(!) I can't help but go through great sperts of hurt for his young bride. Can you imagine sitting next to your spouse laughing and playing a game together one minute and the next minute performing CPR because they collapsed? I can't even imagine what the pain might be like that she is going through, and how she is going to put her life back together now that she has physically lost a large chunck of it. I know God gives you what you can handle, and you leave the rest up to Him, but knowing and doing are two different things, and not the easiest to bear. If you remember, please keep her in your prayers.

I think that is all I have. Get back to ya later.